5. tommy ill do it for you.. where he made new friends, and he only got minimal amounts of homework compared to june, and he could stay up until 9 oclock watching television. he didnt know. the argument was promptly finished with a resounding slap echoing through the house. liam always claimed he just wasnt ready yet but alex did not believe he would ever be ready. she just stared at him, he could almost see the gears turning in her head. he was absolutely heartbroken. he held alex. wishing you never found out love could be that strong Its only rational to stop whatever theyre doing, but what if someone helped Tony realize that he may have feelings as well? he heard his dad say goodbye to june, then stopping at him whispering, goodbye mijo, te amo.. you know thats not what i think, i never said that-. starts and ends within the same node. If you log in you can store your preference and never be asked again. after that the rest of the names called went by relatively fast. 5. tommy the only feeling worse than lying about him and liam was the feeling of jordans lips on his in the next second. it's not that i think you don't love me, you know i would do anything for you." alex looked up through his eyelashes, his eyes wet and shiny. he might say this is what hes been looking for since tommy. it was his last first day of high school and it was so important to him. he was practically vibrating with joy as he led his senior class in moving the tassel, then leading them into throwing their caps into the air. While we've done our best to make the core functionality of this site accessible without javascript, it will work better with it enabled. youalways do this! alex and tommy had been going back and forth with each other for at least ten minutes. 2. june was now watching them from the bottom of the stairs, 3. his mom was gripping the hood of his hoodie, holding him back from trying to hug his dad, he put in all his weight to push his mom off him and promptly ran into oscars side, hugging his legs. [Verse 1: Ally & Normani] Loving him is like driving a new Maserati. Videos were added by DanuL97, Moonblade, Lenin606. he didnt care about that right now. pretty much right away, every student was on their feet, rushing to find each other, or moving to find their families who were now slowly shuffling out of the bleachers, or the small few who held out hope in still finding their cap. congrats alex, proud of you bro, liam responded, pulling alex into some sort of frat bro hug. although it was obvious they had something special, liam wasnt out yet, and they could only meet in secrecy. he just couldnt help it, never getting the feeling of comfort in moments like these, and all he could do in turn is be angry at the world. alex stayed with tommy for another full 2 months before june forced alex to break up with him after hearing one of their fights during holiday break. im so sorry. do youEVERthink of anyone besides yourself? you cannot possibly think that thats true, because youre so so important to me. liam reached his arm out to try and grab alexs shoulder but he abruptly thrust his body backward, practically falling on his back. 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Work Search: im sorry.. 95 guests oh red to everyone else hewassingle. he sat down in the media center during his free period, taking out the calculus homework he was just assigned the period before. Please consider turning it on! no. im so sorry, i dont mean to make you feel bad. even when he hastily threw his body back, his eyes wide and almost scared, she still didnt seem to get the hint. [Verse 2: Camila & Dinah] Touching him was like realizing all you ever wanted. did anyone notice all my titles being taylor songs?! but his rambling was promptly cut off and he was snapped out of his daze by the sharp tone in junes voice. hes assuming he said something because thats what henry did. missing him was dark gray all alone Report illegal content. his head hurt, and all he really wanted to do was go to sleep. Touching him is like realizing all you ever wanted is right there in front of you, Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings. before he knew it he was standing right in front of liam. left kudos on this work! even when he hastily threw his body back, his eyes wide and almost scared, she still didnt seem to get the hint. i was talking alex! | TISCALI MEDIA, a.s. | this chapter hurt so much more because it hits close to home. one second he was thinking about the barista, and then the next moment he was thinking about how henry would hate him for it. trying to know somebody you've never met he moves towards alex, putting his hands around alexs bicep. hi, is this seat taken? alex didnt even get a second to respond before she continued, im jordan, we have english together. he truly did not care about the girl sitting in front of him, all he really cared about was finding liam. loving him was like you did not deserve this, at all. trying to know somebody you've never met his love's like regretting him was like alex had dumped so much on him at once he didnt know how to process it. he looked around briefly for liam, but instead he was greeted by a girl, he saw by the juniors days ago. im not mad per se, i just would have never said any of this stuff to you. he knew they talked about him a lot, but he usually initiated the conversations and they would just go from there. henrys soft voice cut through the silence, what do you want love? his voice was nothing more than a whisper. Touching him was like realizing all you ever wanted was right there in front of you Memorizing him was as easy as knowing all the words to your old favorite song Fighting with him was like trying to . [Verse 1: Ally & Normani]Loving him is like driving a new MaseratiDown a dead-end streetFaster than the wind, passionate as sinEnding so suddenlyLoving him is like trying to change your mindOnce youre already flying through the free fallLike the colors in autumn, so brightJust before they lose it all, [Chorus: All & Lauren]Losing him was blue like Id never knownMissing him was dark grey, all aloneForgetting him was like trying to know somebody you never metBut loving him was red, red, redBut loving him was red, red, redBut loving him was red, red, red, red, red, red, [Verse 2: Camila & Dinah]Touching him was like realizing all you ever wantedWas right there in front of youMemorizing him was as easy as knowingAll the words to your old favorite songFighting with him was like trying to solve a crosswordAnd realizing theres no right answerRegretting him was like wishing you never found outThat love could be that strong, [Chorus: All & Lauren]Losing him was blue like Id never knownMissing him was dark grey, all aloneForgetting him was like trying to know somebody you never metBut loving him was red, red, redBut loving him was red, red, redOohhh burning red, red, red, red, red, red, [Bridge: Camila & [Normani] & (Lauren) & Dinah & {Ally} & All]Remembering him comes in flashbacks {flashbacks} [and echoes](Tell myself its time now) time now, gotta let go{But moving on from} him is impossibleWhen I still see it all in {my head}, [Chorus: Lauren & All & (Ally)]Losing him was blue like Id never knownMissing him was dark grey, all aloneForgetting him was like trying to know somebody (you never met)But loving him was red, red, red (was red)But loving him was red, red, red (was red)But loving him was red, red, red, red, red, red (red red), [Outro: Ally & All]Loving him is like driving a new MaseratiDown a dead-end street. Difficulty: novice Capo: 4th fret Touching Him Was Like Realizing All You Ever Wanted Chords memorizing him was like well i had to have been asking for it, right? i just don't think i can do this anymore liam- i love you so much, but it's so hard. it was far too hot to be completely covered with a graduation gown but who was he to complain, on such an important day in his life. when ellen and oscars fights first started, alex was still so young. you did not consent for it. alex stayed with tommy for another full 2 months before june forced alex to break up with him after hearing one of their fights during holiday break. what? he didnt know. Touching him is like realizing all you ever wanted was right there in front of you Memorizing him was as easy as knowing all the words to your old favorite song Fighting with him was like trying to solve a crossword and realizing there's no right answer Regretting him was like wishing you never found out love could be that strong okay, we always talk about you, and its always about your problems. loving him was red youve been doing such big things and i understand its going to take up some more time. 95 guests Was right there in front of you. tip: hetalia f/f sort:kudos, 5 times alex was rejected the touch he needed+ 1 time henry gave it to him. "don't. don't touch me. he attempted to pull alex into a hug but alex simply just pulled himself away. and he was only partially aware as he was called onto the stage to give his speech as valedictorian. june and alex get in a fight. he felt a feeling in his chest, almost like the feeling he got when he was gonna cry. sweetheart, where is this coming from? henry urged. thats why she kissed meshe wouldnt have just- just done it? henry gave alex a look he could not read. her definition of horrible was getting put next to someone she didnt like in one of her college lectures. instead, alex broke the silence for him, continuing on, someone kissed me today and i didnt want it. alex felt his body almost sag in relief, melting into henrys embrace. hes assuming he said something because thats what henry did. believe it or not, i dont spend all my time around you just because i feel bad for you, he mumbles, his tone suggesting in a way that he doesonly hang around alex because he feels bad for him. he pushed . he let out a small cry, sounding almost like an injured puppy. im sorry for being selfish, and sensitive, and im sorry, but i think you should go home, he mumbled, his tone so high it could be mistaken as a whimper. oh losing him was blue like i've never known like home. the moment we have all been waiting for. you cant just interrupt me like that, its rude. 2. june was now watching them from the bottom of the stairs, 3. his mom was gripping the hood of his hoodie, holding him back from trying to hug his dad, he put in all his weight to push his mom off him and promptly ran into oscars side, hugging his legs. left kudos on this work! All the words to your old favorite song. he was only partially aware while the principle gave a speech. Memorizing him was as easy as knowing all the words to your old favorite song. An annotation cannot contain another annotation. Missing him was dark gray, all alone Forgetting him was like trying to know somebody you've never met But loving him was red Loving him was red Touching him was like realizing all you ever wanted was right there in front of you Memorizing him was as easy as knowing all the words to your old favorite song in all honesty, alex didnt want to do what tommy wanted from him, but he didnt want tommy to be mad at him. Faster than the wind, passionate as sin. im sorry, he whispered, his eyes glossy. it felt like venom on his tongue. he locked the door to their bedroom, throwing as many of his clothes as he could into a duffel bag. "i know. but somehow, its just always my fault, right?, no i never said that tommy please, i promise. tip: katekyou "alternate universe" sort:>words, 1. ellen and oscar alex refused to believe nora really thought this. 6. henry. or as well as they could work. Work Search: she was blabbing on about getting his number, or a date, or something? you cannot possibly be getting upset over this! once he knew he was alone, his legs gave out, forcing his body to the ground. when he got home, his first instinct was the invite nora over, hoping for some positive reinforcement from her. being bibeing who i am- it's so important to me and who i am, and by hiding who i'm with, it feels like i'm losing that part of me," he took a deep breath, tears threatening to fall from his eyes, "and i just can . left kudos on this work! dont touch me. what hes missed goes all the way back to when he was too young to even think for himself. instead, alex broke the silence for him, continuing on, someone kissed me today and i didnt want it. alex took one look in henrys bottomless blue eyes before collapsing into the nearest chair, cries bubbling out of him. i was talking alex! tommy simply just stared at alex. a little while did turn into 45 minutes but neither alex or henry quite honestly cared. its not that i think you dont love me, you know i would do anything for you. alex looked up through his eyelashes, his eyes wet and shiny. he watched as her body tensed, her jaw clenching as she pushed her hair out of her face. no. i would have never wanted you to feel like this. he pushed himself up off the ground and tried to hug his mom, but he was simply just shoved at least a foot away. i love you sweetheart, he smiled, but quickly turned to a frown when tommy pulled away from his touch, let me show you, please. losing him was blue like i've never known missing him was dark gray all alone forgetting him was like trying to know somebody you've never met but loving him was red loving him was red touching him was like realizing all you've ever wanted was right there in front of you memorizing him was like easy as knowing all the words to your own favorite . the night was promptly finished with june showing alex how horrible of a boyfriend tommy was. tears silently ran down his cheeks at the feeling of comfort. he stood facing the blank white door. but they get in a little fight. pretty much right away, every student was on their feet, rushing to find each other, or moving to find their families who were now slowly shuffling out of the bleachers, or the small few who held out hope in still finding their cap. he moves towards alex, putting his hands around alexs bicep. the argument was promptly finished with a resounding slap echoing through the house. ill come by tomorrow to pick up the rest of my bags later. when alex moved to open the door he was fully pulled back, almost landing on his butt. tip: katekyou "alternate universe" sort:>words, Alex Claremont-Diaz/Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor, Alex Claremont-Diaz & June Claremont-Diaz, Alex Claremont-Diaz/Original Male Character(s), Alex Claremont-Diaz Loves Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor, Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor Loves Alex Claremont-Diaz, Married Alex Claremont-Diaz/Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor. he made a brief list in his mind. alex felt his body almost sag in relief, melting into henrys embrace. burning red he knew they talked about him a lot, but he usually initiated the conversations and they would just go from there. i messed up, his voice a whisper, i got scared because youve been so so good to me lately but i've beensuch a bad husband. remembering him comes in flashbacks and echoes he clapped so hard, and let out a small shout of approval, before locking eyes with liam, his eyes brightening all that much more. tip: "sherlock (tv)" m/m NOT "sherlock holmes/john watson", 1. ellen and oscar she sat down across from him, a smile plastered across her face. it was far too hot to be completely covered with a graduation gown but who was he to complain, on such an important day in his life. its not that i think you dont love me, you know i would do anything for you. alex looked up through his eyelashes, his eyes wet and shiny. alex slowly nodded before he felt henrys soft lips against him. he cocooned himself in his blankets, the energy of his sobs tiring him out, and carrying him off to sleep. Alex Claremont-Diaz/Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor, Alex Claremont-Diaz & June Claremont-Diaz, Alex Claremont-Diaz/Original Male Character(s), Alex Claremont-Diaz Loves Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor, Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor Loves Alex Claremont-Diaz, Married Alex Claremont-Diaz/Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor. okay? all alex could do in response was nod as he slowly lowered himself down to the floor until he was sitting. a little while did turn into 45 minutes but neither alex or henry quite honestly cared. Please consider turning it on! he pushed it aside and went on with the rest of the day as it shouldve gone. it was a rather warm fall day, and alex had just gotten back from what felt like the longest day ever. once he saw his dad make his way towards the front door saying something along the lines of picking up his bags tomorrow while the kids are at school, he bolted up, running to meet his dad at the door. it is super unlikely that the people in alexs life did not hug him on a regular basis, but im a sucker for angst so. but thats not true. 4. liam he pushed it aside and went on with the rest of the day as it shouldve gone. dont. mindlessly, he ran his hands up and down on his bare arms where junes hands were just. Down a dead-end street. missing him was dark gray all alone Official lyric video by Casting Crowns performing All You've Ever Wanted (C) 2013 Provident Label Group LLC, a unit of Sony Music EntertainmentiTunes: http:/. alex fell asleep with his hands clutching his blanket against his chest, and some lotion june had rubbed on his cheek only a few moments before, making the injury sting more than he thinks it should. alex and his long term boyfriend in college. like the colors in autumn so bright as well as but they get in a little fight. im not mad per se, i just would have never said any of this stuff to you. All Rights Reserved 2023.. Free Theme By, Touching Him Was Like Realizing All You Ever Wanted Chords, How Could We Ever Just Be Friends I Would Rather Die Than Let You Go Chords, Alapatra Chords | Sajjan Raj Vaidya | Yabesh Thapa. Loving him is like trying to change your mind. 95 guests A C#m B Burning it was red! 95 guests alex glanced at the dinner now abandoned, now cold, sitting on the table, i ruined your plans for tonight, he croaked, looking up at henry with wet eyes. this was nothing new. the barista practically giving alex sex eyes (he isnt exactly sure what that means, but hes sure thats what nora would call them.). ?also, this is me projecting onto alex. he let a few of his tears fall, abruptly looking away, violently wiping at his eyes. it was his first real relationship with another guy after coming out, and it only lasted 2 months before he sent him an out of the blue text, simply stating he did not care about alex like alex cared about him. she didnt stop. burning red that had to be the case. he couldve cried on the spot. they were, and still are, polar opposites which alex believes is what makes them work so well together. tommy skateboarded, played the guitar and drums, and was way to occupied being the cool kid on campus to worry about his studies. 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